Embracing Uncertainty

In the midst of all the chaos of graduating college, fundraising for Malaysia, keeping a social life and maintaining a relationship with the Lord, one thing seems clear: I am learning to embrace uncertainty in my life.

As a part of my GMT internship I have a list of books to read. One is called In a Pit With a Lion on a Snowy Day by Mark Batterson [p.s. I highly recommend this book if you want to learn to move past your fears and embrace a life of fullness and eternity in God]. This book has totally rocked my perspective on how God uses circumstances (good or bad) to change our mentality of Him.

In the book Batterson says "God is always working behind the scenes, engineering our circumstances and setting us up for success." At this point in my life God is putting the puzzle together, I see a piece here and there come together slowly, and I am beginning to see the picture.

I am embracing not knowing what my life will be like in 1, 5, or 20 years and it feels REFRESHING! I am learning to let go of my plans and time line and allow God to move me where He wants. I thought I had it all figured out. I would graduate college and move back to Spain and teach English, be married by the time I was 25 or hopefully 30 and then get a job that would allow me to travel and experience new cultures. Boy, am I wrong. I am putting all my fears to rest and allowing God's grace to move in my life and take me where He wants.

I encourage all of you to do the same. Isn't life more exciting when you don't know the next step or turn? It's the same exhilarating feeling when you don't know a huge drop is coming on a roller coaster or what it will feel like to sky dive for the first time or bungee jump off a cliff. Anything could happen, and the feeling is sensational! Embrace the uncertainity and enjoy the ride, I am!